Monday, August 25, 2008
Wat a week...
from the karaoking n firewerk on fridae and to the aftermath of the AHM.....its been so long since i had this much much fun...would like to thanks the people who made my valuable off meaningful...
on Fridae...was the karaokeing n the firewerk dae with the cliques...wat to say...when u hang out wif this bunch of ppl..there are no dull in the group vocabularly...its fun after fun after fun...the firewerk was nice...worth all the wait...it was superb..if only i can see the firewerk with someone speacial...haha...
Sundae was the AHM...met lots of ppl there...frm Wee Yap, to Zahir, to Mato(deejayin the dae), and my old Pc Sir Razali....the run was some sought ok...nv run the whole stretch..cause promise myself not to perspire cause im going out later after that..so mostly i walk tru out the thing..haha..after that went out wif my mates...did some shopping and i went over the budget...more than $100 are spent....oopsstt...but something a little bit of indulge on myself is good for me....though of buying the shoes...but don have my size..shit the aunty!!! NvM..will get it next month...haha...
oh yah....wont be going home tis week..guard duty leh on sundae..and CMPB tower climb on sat...
and fastin is comin soon...ooppsstt
NExt month shopping list....
Labels: WHAT A BLAST....
5:48 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Signing ON.....(sigh)
One thing that is good when doin deployment is that everyone is in relaxed mood and u don have to be so tense up when u are in camp..during these time we as men are able to talk to our Sir in a frenz to frenz tone..
Me and my mates while sitting down with our O.C and also the P.C we had dicussion on the things that are coming up when this deployment end in a week time...we had the usual banters among us n one of us ask them wat make them sign on army and become regular....
My O.C do it for passion...he was from Commando Unit posted to us now is a Captain...went tru lots and the whole company envy his CV....to him money is just another thing but serving the army is his passion...whereas the PC was a different story...he decide to become regular because he need the money...its all bout the money...he shuld ord 4 years ago but now he gonna ord years laters....my oh my...
it has always play in my mind wether i want to sign on or not...the amount that they dangle around us is more than a lots....50k to sign on for 5 years....plus they payback our pay...do ur maths and thats a lot....there are pros and cons to sign on...but mostly the cons are stacking heavily on the pros....am i going to give up my freedom for 50k??? i cant even tahan this 2 years...wat about 5 years??? but the money is too much to think about...and the incentives and benefits that are given...wow...thats a lot to describe....but if i were even to sign on...it will be because of the money not because i want to give another 5 years of my life to the army...not for the passion but for the money.....
i cant wait to have my weekend back...its weird having off dae during weekdays...haha...and also its been a long time since i play soccer...i miss my weekend soccer...not only that...i miss a lot of stuff...i didnt get to celebrate the national dae not even watching it cause im doing duty..while millions of peoples are celebrating...the small minority of us are keeping Singapore Security....hainz...but what we get are peanuts compare to all of them whu just watch us m do nothing but complain and trying to get us in trouble...
i like this life right now...single not worry bout stuff..having time all to myself and also having enough money to myself....but i wonder how long i would want to lead this life...thought i have no one in my head rite now but people will always say that theres someone in my heart...its been a while or even longer...i knew that things wouldnt be able to happen between us...its just like a dream...where for so long that that i fantasise and not wanting to wake up....i have realised that things cant be like this cause its hurting me more than ever...its alwys have been my fantasise and my dreams to have her back...but as i look and compare myself to her...we are miles apart maybe in terms of thinking and also status...not only that...she deserved someone better that me...much more better.....i have been trying to relive the past..when im wif her and also L...cause both of them are the type of person im looking for...i was hoping n hoping for them cause till now i cant find someone that can come close to them...no one has sweep me off the floor like what they did to me...no one have come close to attract my attention for me to have a 2nd or the 3rd look on them and telling myself shes the one for me.....maybe its time for me to bid farewell to the past cause i just cant try reliving the past...its the FUTURE.....wat was then was then...maybe i will never find another person like them...cause they are one in a million...one in a million...which i lost my grasps on it...
y does people fall in love easily but not me?? there are so many WHY playing in my mind...but theres no answer to all my question....sometimes i just want to give up on love...but looking at the msgs n my littles cranes that they left me....what i want is just something simple...to find someone who i realli feel comfortable with...where i will have no probs letting her see me cries in person...letting my hearts out on anything....telling her wats on my mind and what i have went tru...where the pain are too much for me to bear it at times...the one who want i can let it out without having doubts...someone who can make me express myself more...someone who i can proudly show n present her to my parents....cause when i did that...she will be the ONE for me......
1:57 AM
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Everything that WENT ALL WRONG!!!!!
Wat a bad week i had...from having a spoilt mp4 for the whole week n my psp memory card spoilt on the 3rd dae of the week and also encountered that "thing" to not being able to attend ayam engagement's....haiyo!!!!! its SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Niwae able to release some stress up by going out yesterdae wif my clique...simple n casual outing...like it...hate it when theres not enough money in my pocket to shop....seeing all the nice stuffs but unable to get it....really frustrating...haha...
2 more weeks left and this deployment end!!! cnt wait anymore!!! its veri tiring and mundane oreadi!!! need some time off!!!! need time to pamper myself...cant wait for my off!!!! wEEeeEEEee!!!!!
GeeeEESSS!!! im putting on weight leh!!! fUCK!!!!!!!!!!! im getting fatter!!! damn....must hit the gym oreadi leh....haiyo...see lar cnt control wat i eat...everything also want to eat...hahahha...GYM!!! here i come!!! hopefully i wont be so lazy when i at the gym...hahaha.....
tk bersalah pon kene marah..sial btol...tu pon nk kene pauto
ka per...mapek siak...tkleh kene cikit dudok sebelah hospital lar..klao tk
suke
jgn bace..tutop mate je...sial btol...GERAM!!!
12:40 PM
Friday, August 01, 2008
Braggy??? NO!!!!!!!!
Wat a blast!!! Met up wif the people yesterdae!!! its been such a long time n we realli have
the time of our life...as usual throughout the dae..it was filled wif laughter and jokes...
plus the usual craps that we play on each other...we update on stuffs n whats happenin
and also gossip on certain areas...yah!!! i gossip too!!!! hahaha...whos say guys cant gossip!!!!
i would like to say that it was a suprise to me that im become so attach wif this group of people...
Back then in sec school, i seldom tok to them...except for fie lar...but now its different..
they become some sought like my 2nd family...where i can be myself n let loose without to worry
about anything else...they have become my pillar of strength...even thought our friendship are just like 4 years plus...its has more foundation there some friendship that some of us made which is longer than that...
maybe true friends stay by urside no matter what happen whereas ordinary frenz will leave ur side
when they have met someone else...we normally say that frenz are forever...but normally the one who says
that are the one who contradictin themselves...(aim to no one in particular)..no on is irreplaceable...
we as the grp the RETRIEVEUS treat all frenz the same...we bear no grudges or hatred...BUT!!!!
we do have limitation...no matter what happen...i believe we will stick as one grp..cause thats wat frenz
for..goodbye to all the pretenders!! cause there are no space for any of u in our grp....
BRAGGY??? NO!!! (the most qoutable qoute yesterdae!!!)...cant wait for our next outing that will be on the 22 August!!! we will be karaoke-ing plus watching the firework(its a must for MAZ!!!)
confirm will be happening...haha..there is no boredom when we met!!! hahahaah
YEs!!! i got the engagement invitation for ayam engagement...i don noe wether i can go..
cause im on duty ler..YES!!! im on duty on NAtional dae....serving the nation while the rest are
celebratin...what the heck!!! but its ok..left how many months left and then ORD ORh!!!
its a pity some people willing to serve the army throughout their whole life...some passion on doin this..
whereas mostly its for the money and then they fuck OFF!!! geess....i don called themselves heroes or wat..
cause its thier choice on continue wif this vocation...before i call them heroes..lets get the meaning of
heroes correct...(wikipedia = A hero came to refer to characters that, in the face of danger and adversity or from a position of weakness, display courage and the will for self sacrifice..) so chim..
I heard frm my parents that my grandpa is angry..cause all of his beloved grandchild hasnt live
up to their expectation...the latest i heard is that one of my cousin was caught by the police
for stealing....ciggarette!!!! what the fuck!!! and hes on bail..and there are other things that are happenin
where my family have been untouched..thats good!!! cause i have never see them as my family...
to grandpa!!! im sorry that things have turned out this way..maybe this is the retribution to wat
u have do to my family and also the whole family...its sad to see that ur own child have conflict
that are so deep among each other that to the fact that they seem to not know each other...
this is wat malay say putus keluargaan...but i will never forgive u for what u did to my family...
not only u...but also to my aunts n uncles who crossed my family path...don wori i will not
acknowledge all of u as how u did to my family...but a warning to all of u...once more u
say or done anything to my family..i make sure ur life will never be the same again....
niwae...lets end this in a good note..lets the pic do the tokin!!!
My 2nd family
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And the unglam pics of the dae!!!
12:01 PM
