Friday, July 25, 2008
"Fate play a part in love"
I agree to that lots..How many relationship that u had in your life...if u are not fated to be with that person no matter how much both of u do and sacrifice its no point...
Since i was free todae..i did some touch up on my area..i browse thru my old school year books, olds pics and memento..it brings lots of memories...i read all teh cards that Liping gave me...the birthdae cards..the encouragement cards for me..the present that she gave me...mostly her present are still wit me..the soccer ball clock...most importantly the bottle that is filled with colorful cranes are still on my tabletop...it will never left my sight since i brought it home and it has never been touched or change before..what she gave to me was what the bottle is rite now..of all the present i had receive in my whole life..the bottle is one of the most valuable present in my life..i will not trade it for anything...i feel grateful that she took time to fold me the crane..
i also read all the letter i received from Sabi...from the first letter tat we get to noe each other to the break up letter.."love letters" how long was that..where got people send love letters nowadays...haha...nevertheless...those letters are well kept in an envelope...those too are precious...cause its from someone who captivated my heart by her smile..too bad what i want doesnt materialise...
and also those many pictures that i took on my last hurrah...those many2 pics are still in my laptop and also comp...those pics we took are something that i will kept...
Even thought the relationship i had with these peoples doesnt last..but i thank each and everyone of them cause i grew up and learnt lots in every relationship...every relationship are differents cause the personnel are different...but what remains the same is me...how i have to adapt to changes in surroundings when im in relationship is utterly up to me...maybe this is the part where i fail miserably...a learning curve...this is what i tell myself...
At my age where people looks to settle down and find their perfect one so called perfect one...i still looking for the one...someone told me this "the more you search for your perfect one...the more u fail cause it will come to you it is just that u never noticed or fail to grab their chance...while no matter what i cnt see myself settlin down soon...cause there are too many things that i have to do..seeing howw hard that i have to work to survive in this country and how the world changings im scared to have a partner realli...i don even noe wether i can survive by myself in this world what more having a partner or a child....i wouldnt settle down till everything is in place where i noe that my future family will be well taken off...for that...its still so far and long....
for now...im happy with wat im doing...i don care what people tok bout me or what has people done to tarnish my name...im still me n always be me...im stick to my policy n my belief...i will not try to gain people sympathy and contradictin myself..morever whatever happen or has happen i never ignore or throw my frenz aside...i may gain their wrath with my actions but i respect them n nv had ill feelings for them...love come and go but ur frenz always will by ur side no matter what...this is waht i learnt n my belief...its a pity that u push ur frenz aside just becoz u had a companion...its a pity coz they are there for u n now u forget bout them...well thats life n thats people...u just have to live with that....
thats all for now...
11:30 PM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
"MUKE PECAH SIAK!!"
This was the sentence tat caught the whole gang laughing while one of my frenz was looking at my psp..haha...it was so impromptu n worse it come from a chinese frenz who is well verse in malay...haha..
Ok..last week finally meet up wif saf n fiq...its a pity that ayam cant join us dut to the preparation for his engagement..haha...niwae...its been so long since i meet saf..he grows sideway n backway too much..haha...seeing him like that makes me worried what will happened to me after ORD...haha...i don want to be FAT!!!! haha...niwae...had fun wif them..as always update bout each other story n oso had to tell saf what happen to my love life..haha...thanx for his words..thought i had get over it...his words are some sought of a comforting to me...this came from a guy whos has umpteem number of relationship n finally he settle down wif this gal..haha...hopefully what u wish for my dear frenz really fulfill...next year u said lets see!!!!
SAf was asking me when i gonna to settle down finding my perfect partner...and i was down there looking stunned...settle down with my perfect partner...whats the definition of a perfect partner to me?? the look of Jessica ALba..the body of Angelina Jolie..hahaha..thats my definition of my partner...Saf was worry bout me not finding the rite after all these years...how worried my dear frenz is...cause im the youngest among the group and whereas the others are some sought settle down with their partner..im still being single n cnt find one...he ask me bout S...since i told him the story he ask me how im wif S...this is wat most of my frenz will ask me since i become single...if i had something on with S during those time...i wouldnt be alone n looking for gal frenz..hahaha...i would have straight away ask her for her hand in marriage...hahaha....nothing is on with me n her...we are merely frenz...haha....haiyo...anyone want to intro me their gal frenz?? hahaha...
Niwae i cnt go to ayam engagement and also celebrate the national day...while duty is duty...cnt do anything...4 more weeks to go...my god...i cnt go crazy counting down...n yah..the scheldue for taiwan is oso out too!!! Looking forward for the R&R but not looking forward to the training and exercise!!! gonna die....yah..im saving my money for taiwan cause i noe i will be shopping there...hahaha...
Doing a 12 hour shift with ur fellow frnez..it came no suprises if we discussed n tok bout our life...this is where problems are being told...
"Promises" its easy to say it...
but have u fulfil n kept all ur promises that u make...a promise to ur parents that u will be a good child..a promise to ur partner that u gonna love her forever...a promise to urself that u gonna change to be a better person...but have u reallly kept this promises...maybe among 10 promises u made...u only fulfil 1 or 2 of it...i make lots of promises in mylife....and it seems that i cant keep this promises or even fulfil it...so wats the point of promises...its a same as a wedding vow..isnt that a promises made too...but why is that the number of divorce is going up...isnt this a broken promises...don even say in a relationship...u can say to that someone how much she meant to u love u etc...but at the end of the dae..u break up wif her...
thats all for todae....or this week maybe...
wooo...cnt see myself wif her...geeez shes chnage to the @#$&#
1:13 PM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Soccer again this morning as usual....went up to Simei there Changkat Changi Sec...reached there and saw a familiar face...it is Nordin..my sec skul mate cousin...i ask where is my sec skul mate Azman..he was supposed to play todae but he went oversea...haha..what a small worl after all..hahaha...aniwae..we won...n i finally score my first goal!!! haha..so happy!!!
aniwae...6 weeks of long deployment..haha...and after that will be taiwan...n yah will be goin to taiwan on 25th October till 15th November...
yesterdae went out to accompany azim to shop..have to restrain myself for not shopping..have to save mah...cant shop all the time..haha...but i still want to get the shoes...
thats all for now!! update u next WEEK!!!
4:47 PM
