Wednesday, August 30, 2006
i just don noe y but i feel like blogging now...yah i noe i got my Dmt test in a few hours..just let me say my piece ya...hahaha
i was blog hopping from one of my ex school mates blogs to another.....and by the way all of them are in a relationship and what each of them are going through makes me wonder what i have missed out in a relationship...some of them are going through the best moment of their relationship while some of them are going through the worst of it..but to me...one thing that strike me out is that how sincere their love is for each other even if they are goin through the worst of it...seriously..i have to admit that i suprised..to give up everything that u work for your entire life and everything u had for each other..i realli didnt think i can do that..to be patient of each others characters..to bear wif ech other tempers and nonsense..i don even noe if i can last the in the relationship now..seriously if i were the OLD me i tink i can be tolerant to that...but now as i grew old and becomin mature of my thinkin...i have different take in LOVE...U may say that im not in love so i don noe what im toking about....hainz thats true..sometimes i wrote just what come through my mind or what im feeling rite now...i cnt even changed my thinking after a few days...but what i have seen in couples now..is the willingness to sacrifice ones future for another..i tink it isnt that good...everyone has a dream..by letting ur dreams goes just because of someone and not knowing whether u gonna be wif that person for ur whole life...its kind of waste isnt it...for me to love someone is to let someone persue if each other dreams and maybe helping them to achieve their dreams but not being selfish and stop one person dreams because of u....haha....nevertheless...i wish all my frenz whu are in a relationship the best....treasure each other cause u never noe when u gonna lose each other.... As they is a saying...
God created human with..,br>
Two legs...
Two Hands...
Two Ears...
Two Eyes...
and also TWO HEARTS....
One of the heart is wif u...
and the other is wif someone else in the Earth...
You have to find it to have it all complete...
9:34 AM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Hey...been so long since i updated...lots to catch up..but most importantly is that my exams is comin in two weeks time..and plus the projects for next term final year are up to..don noe what to do..all the projects are damn freaking hard and we have to increase our standard to the business and werking world...herm..am i up to it....haha..aniwae adik ASIAN CHAMPIONSHIP is startin this sundae...PRAYING that all theier hardwerks pay off so that they can play wif the very best..and by the way ..there are in Group B..with South Korea, Japan and Nepal..all the best BOYS..u have my support..will try my freakin best to attend all the matches...hahha..
4:51 PM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
IM FREAKIN PISSSSSSEDDDDDDDD OFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U see...as someone whu treasure friendship more than anything...to be backstabbed and ur name tainted by ur close buddies..i think that is enough of beatings that u can get...while u may wan to noe what happen...As usual on Sat i log in to MSN...And there is my frenz...like usual i start disturbin him...and that one conversation lead to another..and then i got the NEWS bout "MY DEAR FRENZ" whu had been tryin to contact us but failed..the best thing is that is not him saying that..but his "GALFRENZZ"...WHAT makin me n my frenz PISSED is that..is not about him havin a gal frenz without telling us but by saying that we didnt ans his call so that we can catch up things....YA RITE...is it us or U who doesnt pick up our calls...hey BOY!! at least have the tendecies to tell the truth lar...both of us have been askin u out a lot of times...and where is the heck have u been?? makin one excuses after another...not once but a lot of times....even if u wan to spent times wif ur galfrenz at least tell us the truth..we are not that unreasonable to not let u spent time wif ur gal frenz...hei!!! But its ok..as i say i..i treasure friendship more than others..its a pity that u have been betraying our trust not onve but lots of times..Me n my frenz had been quite so as not to wreck our friendship..but u think that our quiteness is our weakneess..Damn freakin U!!! I think ME n MY frenz deserve some explanation frm u..and of course if u have at least a heasrt to say sorry for betrayin our trust...
If u tink that this post is intended to U...or u been HURt by the content..IM SORRY if u are not the person in mind....this person is someone whu noes me long enough for me to rattle like this....
3:20 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
How i wish that a heroin would come and embrace me with love.....haha..can i just let my imagination go wilds...save me from this misery...and lead me to greatness in love..and also show me how to love again...
11:02 PM
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your sould
And the sorrow that you know
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way
10:53 PM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Its been so long since i update...haha...not doin that well...exams..test..and assigment are pilling ups..and my body is too weak...for the past few days i have been like a walking zombie..dragging my entire body to skool...
blog again if im not tired...
10:38 PM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
ur HEART out............................... If Love is a human being.....he will be charged wif murder..for murderin my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12:10 AM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
WHAT A DAE!!!!!!!!!!! had a blast.....haha..ok...wake up early morning to make the sandwiches...haha..but then hot..my mom..wake up n help me do..haha...make tuna sandwich n egg sandwich..then after that...make our way to East Coast..the wheather was superb...veri2 windy n nice..play lots of uno game..laugh till gonna burst my stomach..haha..i realli love it...the food was superb..syafiq's spaghetti goreng and Ayam's nasi goreng plus muffin...haha..had a conversation wif aYam when we were sittin alone...haha...pity him Lyla cnt come or not..hahaa..im alone....okok22...even though the dae was marred by some couples arguement...but i still love it...haha...pIctures will be uploaded soon..hehehehe
11:36 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
My left eyes have been twitching non stop for the last one week..i don realli no why..my mom say im gonna to cry....while im goin to meet someone....who could that be?? Lately..after hearing that...im become cautious of where im walking..and even in the train..i don mind meetin others...but im scared n afraid that the person whu i will be meetin is HER...i just got the feeling..its gonna be sooner or later...quite afraid actually..afraid of having to face the reality of losing her...damn i lost her oreadi..haha...but on a serious note...i don realli feel good actually... U see...last Saturdae..while the couples ( Fiq n Aishah n Saf n Ima ) were enjoying themselves at Esplanade..i have a heart to heart talk wif Ayam..since Lyla wasnt there it was me n chicken enjoyin ourselves...i told him what have been bugging me for last few years..the matter of the heart...i actually thankful for him for giving me advices on to open my heart n so not to let my hearts been clouded but ler some light pass through it...im not ashamed to say that i need a companion...not a steady...but a companion...someone to be there when i need most..to listen to my problems and also to share my joy...I have been bottling up my feelings to all myself...n thats the problem....i scared that one dae..i will break down..n there is no one there for me to lend me shoulder...Am i a bad person?? it seems that i cnt realli find that speacial someone while the others had...it seems that im the only one that left..left on the shelves..no one want to look at...im actually quite sad inside me but i try to smile as not to worry ppl around me... this sundae...me n my peeps will try to have a picnic at East Coast wif the usual ppl..while all of them brings their galfrenz along..while im alone....nah..its no problems actually..kinda like it..so i can spend my time alone watchin the sun set..and i love it..but inside me...i scared that i will be meetin SOMEONE...scared n worried.......
10:30 PM
