Thursday, September 29, 2005
Boring2....todae damn boring...hahaha...but the matter of facts is that every school dae is veri boring to me..hahaha...damn it..todae was my phase test...don noe whether can pass or not sia..afther that..went home n nv returned back for IA..im nw satrin to feel weak not only mentally but oso phsycially...too tired with my studies...need break to re-energised my energy...gosh tired...Shafie money n my thumbdrive which was with shafie was stolen by some idiots...damn those ppl....not to condemn damn..but its up to u to decide ur life..haha..Fasting month is comin...hainz..no mood..not because of fastin but because of Hari Raya...i dread for this day...don noe y...every year felt like not celebratin...this year the same lor...no enthusiastics at all...haha..just like another dae for me..i tink someone had to drag me out from my room so that i go to my grandpa house...haha..cant be bothered as i said...hai..i cant find any excitement in my life nw..my life is dull with little color...haha..everydae is routine n tats wat goes for me...except when i am wif syafiq n gang...hianz...thats all coz 2molo is another routine day..Boring.......
10:12 PM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
halo..todae...will be short n swit...have to study for my phase test 2molo..it is included in the CA n it carry a huge percentage...thats y need to study lor...wish gdluck for me...love u all.....
8:29 PM
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
i snapped todae..i don noe wat happened..it just that i got frustrated, angry n mad suddenly...i don noe y...maybe because of the stupid lab assesment for the EES thing...i just cant get it..everything i do is correct but the final outcome fail..how frustrated is tat..sori my frenz for my rude behaviour..hainz..its frustratin in why i cant understan this stupid subject...it is different frm IA..hqinz...For IA..im too fast for the teacher..i realli understand IA..how i hope EES is just like that...my energy is drained out just because of todae....hainz....so tired..but noe what..i met my classmates wee yap,soo tao n kaixin during break..as usual disturb each other like siao outside the wat seng shop...hahaha...relive the memories of secondary school..hainz..exams r just around the corner..my phase test is on thursdae n theory test is on next week...how to cope...this is worse than O level sia..hahhaa..bye lar..i need to rest..maybe watch some video..........
5:22 PM
Monday, September 26, 2005
Gosh..todae..mondae blues sia..hahaha..wake up feel lazy to go skool sia..but have to go or not attendance drop...meet shafie as we go skool 2gether n as usual fills of crap jokes n stories for each other..when reachin skool..the feelin of boredomn sianzess appear..damn shit..but then again..i got goals in my life so i just ignore the boredom n sianzess n went to class..first period was the EES lesson..gosh i cnt understand how to do the logic gate shit...thanx to hafiz i managed to do it...aniwae..go for lunch late n enter IA late..cnt be blame lor..do the EES thing solong n hard...hahaha..aniwae the IA lesson was boring as usual i do mostly the werk but then just becoz i link wrongly the stupid teacher say i nv pay attention lar i nv do this n that....shut up.i noe i do my werk...so keep quiet..aniwae i saw my class play online game in class...walau like LAN gaming oreadi sia....i didnt joined coz i seldom play this type of game....hahaha...cant wait for the end of the month so tat i can buy the Esprit shirt sia..hahaha..n pay the jersey money..hehehe...damn it thursdae phase test have to study...so scram off.........
7:21 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
hahaha..im back...hahaha..itd been a long tie since i update my blog..busy2 lar..hahhahah..cant bother with this things..haha..jokin je..i noe that all of u are mizzin me rite...oklor..don mizz me so much lar...last fridae..didnt come to skool..wat happened?? wake up at 6 coz mittin shafie at 630..look at the handphone clock..sms shafie told him that i lazy to go to skool..haha..later in the afternoon,shafie camo my house take songs frm his mp3 n then go msn disturb ppl lor..haaha..penat lar..hehehe..yesterdae..wake up..syafiq msg askin me to follow him to Plaza Singpura..hahaha..mit arnd 5 plus..on the way gi dhoby ghaut..plan failed..stop at orchard go jalan2..fiq lapar giler..baru abis werk..go eatat lucky plaza..after that head down to wisma look at clothes at ESprit,topman n others..hhahaha..baju esprit veri temptin next month goin to buy..hahaha...syafiq strezz coz he wanted the topman clothes but cost $79 n lacostes shoes cost $99..hahaha..yeesterdae both of us like rich men..only go the high class end shop..hahaha..mum kol tellin me busu n mak uda come..askin me to go home early...haha..reach home n mum show me the shirt that busu buy..coincidencely hahaha..its frm esprit hahaha..2 some =more..the price tag have removed n it cost $69 bucks both..hahaha..thanx busu..enjoy u n uncle jim n auntie po n pak uda n mak uda companies..hahaha...haha..sundae..trainin bola in the mornin..penat rabak..next week ader game dgn budak singapore poly..maner bagos lah dorang..hahaha..tell u wat they puttin me in the playmaker role..rabak..10 goals i scored..lepas tu hang out kat umah fiq play game..lepas tu..reach homen do the blog...haiz..have to study for the phase test n exam later..bye..love u all..FEEWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEt
7:55 PM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Yo..wat a day todae...veri hapi n enjoyable lor...hahha..must thanx ppl like linana,hubab,faizah n veron for entertainin me lor..hahhaha..everything we do must ended with a smile or a laugh..haha..im glad to noe u guys better n i kinda treasure this friendship..hahaha..about studies todae..My EES okay lor..lucky got fizah help..aniwae i try n my connection is correct but don noe y not werkin..My IA..hahaha..like usual..easy lor..just simple follow the teacher n follow the book lor...but i think i do faster than the teacher..hahaha..2molo..feel like not goin for PIE lor..veri sianz n boring..furthermore shafie comin 2 my house 2molo..hahaha....aniwae thats it..try to watch REal madrid game todae..wish me all the best so that i can wake up lor..
7:54 PM
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
halo my dear online frenzy..hahaha..todae was usually day for me..in school was such a relaxin mode for me..as i said im changed..have to thin bout myself than others..hahaha..aniwae me n shafie had a good time eatin our lunch at banquet at eastpoin..skip IA lesson lor..hahaha..eat wonton noodle n carrot cake..haha..quite nice..maybe must postpone my trip to geylang after eatin the wonton noodle..hahaha..actually i cant wait for the exam lor..even though i haven start revisin yet.i don noe why im keen for the examination..hahaha...bring it on....im ready for your challenge...me plannin to start my intense revisin for my EES..have to do well n must do well...i feel that i do it..but not try to sound over confident..i think i trying my best for my EEs..hahaha..n i nearly 4get..the advises i give to linana rite was repeated my ms kannu..hahaha..great mind thinks a like.....buai.....
8:32 PM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
im veri2 relieved n hapi todae...i felt so free after straightened my thinkin..thank to my sis n my frenz whu hv been providing a listenin ear to me...NOw..i tink more bout myself than others...its always be me n me not other ppl..this may sound selfish but thats life....whether u like it or not..understand...i had a big dream and ambition n u ppl don have any part in my future ambition n dreamz...so cant be bother wif u all...maybe our path will cross in the future but be sure i don own u a living...u ppl will not be there when i need most..u wont be there when im hapi or sad...so u not important to me..the most important to me are my frenz true frenz whu will be there when i need most..true frenz whu had spent years wif me n go through thick and thin together...
its seem tat ppl changed just to fit in a group..whether its good or bad doesnt bother them..what most is that they fit in that group..hai..its so sad to do that..cant believe that ppl will do that...hai..come on guys..jst be urself..frenz will accept u for whu u are not what u are..haha..am i like that..hell no.....its again my principle n its against my character...i don need to change for others...u ppl don deserved it...haha..so thats it idiots!!
5:45 PM
Monday, September 19, 2005
Another boring day for me....don realli tok much in skool..like no point tokin in class sia...actualli doesnt feel like comin to skool animore..feel like quittin sia..haiz..its just that i don feel good animore..hainz..im too tired of skool,studies n travellin..come skul for the sake of attendance sia..wait cnt take exam sia..haiz..OI PUSSY,NITHYA and gang..mizzes u all guys....hahaha..cant believe im missin u guys..hainz....gosh...tired lar....thats the most important thing that im sufferin nw..hahha...don noe why lar...come skul only no mood sia...what happenin to me..to all my frenz in class whu seem that im been not tratin u well..im sori lar..coz im not that in good mood to tok actually...im there in class n physically but not my mind and soul...hainz....
7:19 PM
Sunday, September 18, 2005
aiyo..thats all for todae coz my nw shagged to the highset level!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
buaiZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
11:06 PM
Friday, September 16, 2005
IM FUCKIN FREAKIN PISSED TODAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i realli don noe why im feelin like this todae..maybe the weather but one thing for sure...im realli pissed to the max todae..when to skool like usual wif shafie n was quite fun with both of us full of jokes n stories..it realli when quite well until the break...i don noe why maybe i felt somethin mizzin in me or around me..i was mostly quite todae..maybe thats good...don realli quite find the answer..maybe too sleepy n tired or worse thing...i got bored with life in ite n around me...when im in deyi i nv ever felt this quite of feelin...one thing for sure i need a rest..maybe this sunday game will take me off my moody mood....AAAAAAARGGHHHHHH..
Goin out with syafiq 2molo to Plaza Singapura..before that gooin to see my brother game at christchurch against hoome united..hope that they win so that they won the league title...can't realli wiat for sundae coz the rematch against wat the name of the team?? n of course the liverpool match against manchester united..come on man utd!!!!!!!!!!!!hahaha..
FUCKIN SCRAM OFFF!!!!!!!!!!
9:27 PM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
what another freakin day
mr ching told us today that ppl whu had below 95% attendance had to appeal so that they could take their exam...hai...scared to the max laio coz my attendance is 93%...September 26 is when the debar letteris sent out with the appeal letter..worried sia..hope if i had to appeal...i would had advantage on others with my clean discipline records n others thing liao...what the heck i got myself into...after another problem,,here come another major problems!!!!!!!!!!!! luckilymy attendance for IA is 99%...or not..gone sia...had to go for the NAtional services...god damn it...pleaz pray for me!!!!!!!!
8:24 PM
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
WAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE F**K
im freakin pissed off with the way the skool calculate my attendance sia!!!!!!!!!!!! itss freeakinnn frustratin when my attendance was 95% when i received my 1st warnin letter..after that without fail i attend to the lesson..but what happen?? my attendance now is 93%...where is my 2% u idiot!!!!!!!!!!!! its sux...my frenz DAN worse frm 96% to 90% sia..what the hell they doin sia..n that stupid headof department of mmt has been comin to our class n had been irritatin me to the max....stupid him...this cannot that cannot...rubbish sia.....im freakin wori that i can take my exam next month coz the minimum criteria is 95%...WOri sia...................
6:09 PM
Monday, September 12, 2005
yoyo...hahaha..skul sux to the max sia..the two lesson i had to dae was damn boring..realli2 boring..luckily that got ppl like faizah,veron,linana to make e dae enjoyable for me...hahaha...i felt sceptical when i went to skool..i was moody,restless but then i think when i shared my problems a little bit with linana i felt my burden ease..but not a lot..thanx for the listenin ears yah..hahhaha..haven received msgs frm her after that since n i haven msges her..im worried n scared that she will asked me e question again...m i running away frm it?? i hope not..its that i wan to have some time to think about it before me come up with a conclusion...thats it for todae..coz im tired n shagged....
SCrAm OfF u IdIOtts.................
7:20 PM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
goSh..3rd time blogging todae sia..realli got nothin to do todae..boring to the maximum level..actually if ppl had ask me out to..i would not been in the best of mood to party or enjoy...gosh..i had been running a fever lately n that doesnt go well with the state im in n the mood im in to..i realli hope that i don blow up tomolo in class coz nobody noe that i had a really nasty temper..so my frenz pleaz don irritate me..im not in the best mood pleaz undestan..I realli miss my secondary school frenz..i realli mizz the time we had together even thought the last few months we endend quarrellin moore than enjoy ourself together..the time spend during the earlier days were the best i had in Deyi..even though others O level classes were busy stuydin..we were busy makin a fool of ourself...hahaha..even though many of us ended up with ITE..we realli don feel the feelin that we had failed...to me talents had been inside us from the day we were born but the talent need to be added with hard work to make it click..many of us noe that we are useless in papers werk..but we are better in other things which relate in what we do everyday..ppl like us are much creativity than others,full of ideas but we cnt show it just becoz we aint in the poly or jc..well..don bother abt it...coz i knew that everyone of my frenz are unique in their own ways n that make them speacial than others..so my frenz whu had been there for me during the good n the bad times..i realli cherushed our friendship..Of course tokin abt friendship..i would realli like to use this opportunity to thank what i called true frenz LIPING for bein there when i realli need most...ur words of encouragement n advises when im on the brink of breakin down really help me most...Gosh..i realli got nothin to say bad bout u n i realli hope that u would stay happy ( which u realli do), do well in the poly which u realli can...and important been hapi always with ur guys..I RREalli wish u all the best in the comin future n i will support u in whatever u do...gosh u are great as a frenz.......hai...endin here coz me need to take a long nap to release myself of Stress so............ssee u 2molo...lots of sufferings..........
9:40 PM
feel like bloggin again lor..hahaha..nuthin to do actually..havin a rest after the soccer match...we win 4-2 and i scored a long distance shot..hahaha..like MIcheal Ballack...hahaha..actually quite tiring..have to run up and down the pitch as me play at right winger..stupid ham scored two goals..oklor..during that time..hungry like hell sia..like 20 years nv eat..stupid me hv had my breakfast then play soccer..On the way to redhill,abg elfi kol me whether i will be atendin the trainin..Sori i will make up next week..hahaha..hope next week got match lor..rematch with the mosque team..hahaha
Well..my mind is actually in turmoil..i don noe what will i do next...i don noe what im thinkin abt too..gosh..im in desperate need someone to talk to...i hate tis feelin...Gosh its not that im flirtin or playin with your feelin..imin the worse state then u now..i cherish the time we sms each other but when u ask me that question..im dumb-founded..Confused as i may in isnt the way that the real answer will come out..the more i feel the pressure the more i will make rash decision abouth this matter...im scared of bein hurt again n again..to me replacin that person fron my heart isnt the simplest job to do...if that replacement was easy...i would have went to another relationship after i broke up with her..but NO..for 4 years im remain single..scarred n hurrrt..jealous that my frenz are falin in love with other..couples hugging/kissing in the train......well.....i cant just stop msging her..it will realli hurt her heart...hai....what to do??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
4:40 PM
Actually didnt have the time to update the blog yesterdae so doin it early in the mornin todae..hahaha..actually me nw preparin to meet hamdi to play for his team( they begging me to play) hai..shoulh had meet syafiq to go to trainin n get jerset todae...wah lor..next week then got becoz of stupid hamdi...plannin to watch real madrid mattch but cnt make it sia..sleep like a dead person...hahahaha
Really..i got really no mood todae sia..i think i the fire has started to burn the whole forest..thanx to me..i played the part of startin the fire now i don noe wat to do..she asked whether i like her yesterdae?? what to say?? what to do?? i cant make up my mind n i don wan to make any rash decision..not only i don wan to hurt myself,i don wan to hurt another gal...what to do..MY HEAD SAY YES BUT MY HEART SAY NO n MY MOUTH SAY I DON NOE....haiyo..what have i got into myself to..
8:00 AM
Friday, September 09, 2005
whaahahaha...didnt attend skool todae..suddenly got fever liao..hahaha..wake up feelin sick to the highest level sia..hahaha..so just continue sleepin lor even though aroud 8 stupid hubab kol tryin to irritate me..hahaha..seriously todae me just lying down at home trying not to tink bout anything lor which had botherin me so much..the more i think bout it the more i feel uneasy,scared of bein hurt again...the scar from the previous relationship haven been heal yet..it stills hurt after so long....u guys may tink im such a sissy still hurtin bout the past where i should be folly around with other gals rite now..BUt im not a irresponsible person where i changed my gals like im changing my clothes..im not like u so don try to change me coz nobody can change me except me..thats true...for gals out there..man are human beings too...they have feelings too...SO PLEAZ don try n HURT them..
10:39 PM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
GoSh...another 8-5 day lesson..quite boring oreadi lah skool..hai faizah haven been attendin skul liao..she sick..hahaha..HOPE that she is well..Todae EEs do the practical again..oklor..can do the prac but need to practice alot..me nw quite forgetful liao..haha..IA lesson hai what can i say..BOring to the Core..For 1 whole week..we do the same thing sia..I need new thing to entertain me lah..hahahaha....
AM im playin wif fire?? am i tryin to get into another relationship?? Am im trying to send the wrong signal to her?? The most important thing is whether am i ready to commit into another relationship..Am im Brave enough to have go for this relationship...Am im toying wif my feelings?? wat will happened if she suddenly came back to you when u wif her?? wat will i do?? gosh..i hope that i will my heart more rather than my heart sia..
ANother washy-wishy decision that i will made in matter that involve the heart...i hope that i wont make any decision sooner or later!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9:58 PM
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
halo...jst restin down so nothin to do so update my blog lah...haha..todae supposed to see my brother soccer game at christchurch but cnt make it lah..2 game miss liao..hahaha..sul now becomin so lame n boring sia..the subject hai cnt make it or even cnt stand it oreadi..IA lesson now boring sia..don have Miss kristen e lesson becomin boring..e replacement teacher cnt make it lah..ok..haha..how long does two person meet b4 they become a couple?? gosh i seein guys just meet gals with less than few months n they become couple oreadi..cnt believe it sia..thats good if that is true love..cut wat if it is a fling..ain't both of u just wastin time on each other n worse still during that time when both of u are together,both of u lost someone speacial whom really love u frm the bottom of the heart..hahaha..COME ON..don rush into a relationship people as u need a foundation between two person before u can let the relationship grow..A relationship is just like building a building..u need the foundation to support it below before u construt the other floor...haiz............ITs sad that i can't practice wat i preach sia...haahha..thats all for now...maybe update again later coz i would't be sleepin todae as im goin to watch the England game...
7:24 PM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
haha..hv to write somethin after watchin shooting star..haha..its not that i watch every episode but to me today episode realli struck me in the heart...after watchin how sly goes through the trouble helping the gal..the gal just ran away after that..its so sad to see how much sly love the girl..thats what i been feelin for the past 4 years..hahaha..don wan to be mushy2..but..will a guy/gal do anythin for love?? that wat im curious abt..for me..i will do anythin for her if she as me too..its not that i becomin a DOG to just follow the gal order but to me it come naturally..i don noe why but im just like that..everythin frm her was kept nicely in my drawer...to me its the most valuable things to me than my money..i remember vividly how i suffered on that day till now..even though frenz are by my side everytime..sometimes u need other than my frenz and family to confide to..GosH how it hurtttsss so much everytime i think abt it...
9:25 PM
What a tiring dae..actually stay until 3 plus just to complete my EES test todae..semangat giler sia but wat to do have to go through it 2molo if todae didnt finish..haha..gosh..exam is nearer n have to buck up so that not to repeat the module sia..gosh strezz sia..hahaha..hope that passed this module n go into the next module...
hai..is there a meaning of true love?? or it is just a sentence??nowadays,it easy to see a couple together and then break up when they are bored with each other..hahaha..can't believe that ppl treat love like a game..maybe different ppl have different perception of it..but to me..they will regret it one dae..jst like me..so to the couples out there treasure your partner regardless of each other short-comin because u would regret not to have treasure it if it has lost from you forever..be patient with one another n take all arguement u had as a step to noe each other much better..GOSh tokin bout this make me jealous sia..haahaha
SCRammm Out....
6:26 PM
Monday, September 05, 2005
i had been feelin rather weak this few week..i mean damn weak..i had been like a walking zombie..tired n sleepy..going to school nowadays had been a dreadful things for me..don noe y..maybe the ambience in the class make me feel that..My class is too divided..hai..this is the first time that i been in this class with different groups of ppl hanging together..haha..strugglin wif studies liao especially ees...too physic liao..have to pass but quite hard..plannin by e end of the week to star my revision liao..buck up before it tis too late..have been going out wif hamdi n syafiq regularly again after a while liao..had a great fun after such a long time..only safari is mizzin..have been spendin a lot of time n also money on pool liao..bankrupt oreadi..have to start to save money oreadi..plannin to take e driving license after hari raya..hahaha..praying that the wish can come true liao...but not realli looking for hari raya..n i have excuse not to go to my grandpa house...can't be bothered...every sunday now got soccer trainin liao..joining Abg Elfi team..quite strong team but have to play center back sia..my face shows e name center back meh..hahaha..but its ok..coz Abg Elfi trusted me on that role so have to repay his faith just play..have form a good partnership wif syafiq..only need to brush up certain thing lor...lastly..istill haven make up my mind on the issues which i have been pondering for months...TO WAIT OR TO LOOK FOR NEW?? haha..if safari he surely ask me to sound that gerl liao..but scared lor..sumore she becumin more prettier but me now become more fatter liao...so sad..but i trying my best to slim down..target 55kg..my heart haven realli recover frm e last relationship..but me trying to be in positive mode especially wif frenz like hamdi,safari alwais askin me to look for new gals..hahaha..ANYONE HAD ANS TO THIS??
8:43 PM
Halo..cant believe i had this blog n was forced by my frenz to had one..so just for the sake of it have one lor..maybe i think having this blog will keep me stress free n at least i wont be bothering my frenz wif my problems lor...so my dear frenz especially Liping, i won't bother u wif my problems lor..Firstly i had to thanx my two "hardwerkin" frenz for lookin for the skin of my blog..But i think i want to change the skin liao..hahaha..Thanx veri much...thats all for todae..i will write a longer one afteri finnish editing this blog
7:18 PM
